tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33610584086379642002024-02-08T06:42:23.046-08:00Thoughts and Inconsistenciesthoughtsandinconsistencieshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10213777211419605445noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3361058408637964200.post-30593955686284702552011-12-18T00:20:00.000-08:002011-12-18T00:20:27.826-08:00inconsistent jargon and I'm completely F'ed up!So i find myself ultimately raw at times. Not knowing whom I should be or become. Sometimes i just really feel pretty messed up emotionally. sometimes i lack an outlet to share all the crap that I have going on in my life. I have one friend who has a hard time listening to me because i feel that he doesn't have the patience to hear me.Not being accepted by people who love us. <br />
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Recently I have found a few journals i have written stating my emotional state about two months ago and I can say that I have truly had a heart and mind change. but sometimes my past tends to overtake me and take me on a roller coaster that I sometimes I do not understand that I am on.<br />
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Been thinking about a past relationship (mostly internet and emotional based) but this girl Kelly who I could not truly commit myself too because i didn't know myself. I really didn't know me or what i wanted. so I sabotaged our friendship and really rejected her. I mean some of things i have done i feel i have not yet forgiven myself more so because i haven't apologized for my actions I did with her friend Jenna. I haven't found closure with myself.much less unforgiveness in the fact that i totally screwed it up. But nonetheless its something I haven't been able to shake. I don't know what to do about it? but the Lord has been pressing it more and more in having to deal with it? So i don't know?thoughtsandinconsistencieshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10213777211419605445noreply@blogger.com